To love and be loved. That’s all anyone really wants, right? To be able to fully give everything that you have to someone else and feel an amazing amount of that same energy returned to you in only the way one person can. I know it’s what society has always told me to want.
But what if that love isn’t a person? What if it’s your job? Or your dog? Or the hobby that you are so passionate about? Well that’s okay, right?
Yes. 100% yes. Even though being in love with someone sounds like the end all be all of life, it is the energy that you put in and what you get in return that makes love worth it. It is how you feel about yourself when that passion and love is a part of you.
So play that sport. Practice that instrument. Travel the world. And do what you love just because you love it. The people you love – your friends, family, and even strangers who appreciate you in some capacity – will recognize how happy what you love makes you and be happy in response.
The most important part of love, though, is loving yourself. You have to have faith in you. Everything will fall into place as soon as you realize the immense amount of love that you should shower yourself with. You are a strong individual worth more than you even recognize. I love you and so do many others. As soon as you recognize that, your world will be filled with love of all kinds.
“The greatest thing that you will ever learn is to love and be loved in return.” – Moulin Rouge
That all comes after you love yourself first. Be passionate, go forth, and love.
“I began to realize how important it was to be an enthusiast in life. If you are interested in something no matter what it is, go at it full speed. Embrace it with both arms, hug it, love it, and above all become passionate about it. Lukewarm is no good.” – Roald Dahl
Remember when you were a kid and running around at recess was the best part of your day? Eating lunch in the cafeteria with all of your friends was the most exciting social event? Rushing off of the bus and into your house was such a freeing feeling? Everything was so simple. Everything was so innocent. You didn’t have a care in the world about how you were perceived and didn’t let other people influence your actions. You did what you wanted because it was something that you enjoyed and were passionate about. It didn’t matter if you could run the fastest; you were going to play tag. It didn’t matter if you could double dutch; you were going to jump rope. It didn’t matter if you weren’t best friends with someone; you were going to hang out.
Why can’t we still do that? It pains me to look around and know that people are changing themselves. Whether they are changing to fit what they think is the cool thing or for other peoples’ standards, they are changing themselves from the people that they really are. They aren’t doing what they love or being truly themselves because they are worried about how they are viewed. That’s not fair. That’s not fair to the carefree child who’s expression was so organically developed. That’s not fair to the amazing person who learned from everything life threw at her so far. That’s not fair to you.
You deserve to act like yourself. You deserve to express the true you in and out everyday. Whoever you are, I want you to know that you are loved. You are an amazing person and that is solely because of your personality. You grew up to be the person that you are right now, so don’t change that just because you want to fit a particular mold. Take any negative thoughts that you have about yourself and use them to push forward to reach your goals. You are loved. You are amazing. You are yourself and no one can do that better than you.
I lay awake tonight thinking about the things I could have said. What I could have done. How I could have acted. The words that I should have written. The way that I should have made others feel. The work that I should have put in. The conversations I should have cherished. The memories I should have held closer. The laughs I should have savored. The hugs that I should have embraced.
It’s easy to think of all of the things that I could have done. No one – not one single person – is perfect. I recognize that. I’m not saying that I expected myself to be flawless for the past years, but I wish I knew how long time lasted.
It’s 1:43 in the morning and that is what’s on my mind. The things that I could have done better and how I could have been a better version of myself, not just for me, but for the people around me – for my family and for my friends. My mind ticks with every second that passes and races knowing that there is so much going on in my own life and the lives of those around me.
Time is a complex thing. We never have enough of it when we want it most, but when we have too much of it, we never seem to be content. Some people just don’t get the amount of time that they deserve. Others don’t spend their time how they wish they had. I don’t want to look back at the time I’ve had and regret any of it. I want to know that I did everything that I could to be a positive impact. I want to know that I did everything that I could to make other people feel the happiness and love that they deserve. That’s how I want to see the relationships that exist in my life. Yes, they get complicated, but it’s the good people and the real experiences that make the time worth it.
I’m going to make my time count. Even right now, at 1:49 am when my eyes are swollen and my brain is overwhelmed, I’m going to make my time count. The relationships in our lives matter. Make sure of it.